crushes are great until you realize that they’ll never be interested in you
Marta Nowacka by Tomasz Haczyk for Design Scene
Shaquan is a fucking retard. Idk what my sister sees in him. How can you change another person’s email and password. Then forget it. Seriously fuck you. You’re fucking fat and stupid. What is there in life for you anymore, other than mess around with my sister. YOU’RE GOING NO WHERE IN LIFE IF YOU CAN’T EVEN REMEMBER THE PW
I don’t understand why you’re mad. I got screamed at for no reason and my door is half broken. WHY ARE YOU MAD? I should be mad. Why can’t I be the one mad for once. Well today, it’s my turn.
Seriously, I spent the whole day watching her kid and I get yelled at in the end. I’m sorry you can’t find his pacifier because OBVIOUSLY there’s no GPS on that shit. You act like you’ve never lost it before. I went through HELL and back because of THAT KID! I fucking WOKE UP for god’s sake after staying up all to 8 in the morning to watch him when you left. YOU’RE SO DIFFICULT TO EVEN SPEAK TO AND SO IS YOU’RE SPOILED KID. HE’S NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY ANYMORE, SO DEAL WITH IT IF YOU DON’T TRUST ME.
I can’t even believe you screamed at me. Sure, I look suspicious walking out of my room while he’s on the stairs. You didn’t even give me the chance to explain it. I wanted some pizza, so I was checking to see what I should order once Hoc comes home. You’re unbelievable and I’m sick of it.
I’m tired of being treated like the bad guy when all I’ve been doing is favors for you, out of my own good heart. You wouldn’t be surprised if I actually hanged myself.
This weekend has been extremely excruciating. I’ve never felt more alone than 10pm to 3am in the morning on a Saturday. I seriously felt like shit compared to Karen. I realized, I had nothing going on with my life. I’m not much of a story teller, but a listener and I’ll always be that listener. It hurt as I met Karen today. She reminisced about KCON, and didn’t even noticed how much it hurt me listening. I wanted to go but couldn’t. I wouldn’t even look nice in a dress. I can’t even dance, so I’m that person that sits there. I would feel bad if I brought everyone’s mood down as well.
Life of Pi has got to be the best movie in the world. I watched it alone on a Saturday.
I liked him for a while. Today, Karen mentioned that she couldn’t see him with me. It would be weird and it made me more sad. It just crushed every ounce of hope. I just want to be liked back by someone.